Thursday, 30 July 2009

Waitingxx

Dear Readers

I would firstly like to say a big hello after not being on the blog for a while.I emailed a dear friend saying that I felt "uninspired" to write anything, I feel as if July going into August has been a little of a pause or a time of waiting.I know that many shifts are happening in alot of areas of my life that has "wobbled" me if somewhat.I know that im waiting at this time but not sure to what!I feel that its to something big though.You know like when you see dark rain clouds in the sky with the promise of rain but as yet it hasnt delivered - im there!

So for the meantime im happy to pause wait enjoy this quiet time and let it all flow in at the perfect time.

Love to you all Wendy xx

"Emotions are the next frontier to be understood and conquered. To manage our emotions is not to drug them or suppress them, but to understand them so that we can intelligently direct our emotional energies and intentions.... It's time for human beings to grow up emotionally, to mature into emotionally managed and responsible citizens. No magic pill will do it."

-- Doc Childre


Monday, 27 July 2009

Time Travel


I travel through time and space, with memories vague and distant of times long ago.

Taste takes me back to barefoot in the red desert, a small child playing carefree and laughing in the red sand

Smell shows me a lost love across distant waters. Tears sting my face, lavender fills the air my heart longing.

Scenes of violence leave me filled with fear, which grips my stomach like a vice. My breath short and gasping, rasping in my throat like saw cutting it's way to freedom.

Memories of a power held deep within, the fear of its release mixed with anger, hurt, and blame, thats held so deep, it's as if it does not really exist.

These memories I no longer need for they feed me not with love, peace and joy.

I release them all, I surrender to all that my life can be now in this present time, this world filled with love joy peace and hope I feed my soul with these.

Painful memories from the past no longer serve the best of who I am today.

Poem by Claudia May 2007

Teashop revelations

Another beautiful weekend, the sky looks magnificent with the promise of more rain and thunder.

Sitting in a county garden tea shop with my partner, sipping tea and dunking ginger biscuits... heaven. Seem to find myself having this feeling more and more often.

As we held our hot drinks we spoke about aspirations and the amazing gifts that everyone has, from patience, the love of gardening to designing web programs and writing music. A blessing, yet one that can be turned into pressure by not only the outside world, but from within personal relationships and often more harshly, from within us.

A feeling of discomfort washed over us. Something needed to come to light.

It become clear that Dave never really released the pressures of last year, the possibilities that it held, the belief that to be financially abundant, it took a great deal of time, hard work as so much effort. How floored this belief is. How many times we can hear some one else say these things, yet the words and meaning don’t register, it was wonderful to see him unravelling the tangle that was there, hidden in his subconscious. It effected each area of his life.

He then saw an image with his inner vision, a scene of himself joyfully skipping down the street. With this image came a story of letting go, that all comes with freedom, not pressure and restriction.

My uneasiness was still there. I was being nudged to see and feel my tangle of thoughts. I saw and felt how harsh I was to myself. I still held the energy of blame for ever being so poorly. Disapproving that I often lie down in bed during the day as I feel tired and get sore muscles and joints, even though this is no longer every day or week. It became clear that I over look my many achievements, that the underling disapproval was still there, weighing me down.

Ah how good it was for this to surface, how unfair to ourselves we were being once seen easily transformed with laughter.

We always talk openly and freely with each other, something that was once a challenge now so simple. Still it was a relief to speak about this too, when something comes to light there are always blessings. Both walked out so much lighter than when we went in, able to laugh at ourselves and each other.
As soon as we got home, the heavens opened and the sky became one giant waterfall.

That evening we light candles, grabbed a drink, our blanket and before we played a movie, toasted to each other, our silliness and to our love.

With Love
Katie x

Friday, 24 July 2009

Angelic message

"Beloved,

You are always perfect in our eyes, and continue to be so as you grow. It is a time of awakening, a journey of self awareness that you have embarked on. Let us look at your lives together, to help you to truly see the areas that you respond to in old ways, when they do not reflect who you are now. "

Channelled by Katie

Friday, 17 July 2009

Chips & Chocolate

Had a very firm message from the Angels yesterday while wallowing in chips & chocolate - why are they always right *grin*.. even when they seem "cross" with me, or is that firm but kind.
"You have & know the tools to lift your energy & vibration & change this illusion. Let it pass & stop sitting in it!"
Guess that told me x x

Two Paths

Sitting on my bed, I slipped into the welcoming space of my inner world. I felt a conflict within, resistance in my thoughts and emotions, one that I was not aware of until in meditation. Symbolically releasing by what I feel as an ‘inner opening of clenched hand’ I felt an immediate release. I rested in stillness, vaguely aware of a moving world outside where thoughts continued to dance outside for my attention, yet receiving none.

From my space within, I was given a choice. Two paths lay before me. One, I could continue very much as I do now. Live in a comfortable home with my loving partner, promoting Sanctuary of Angels in a verity of ways, seeing people for healing treatments and reading, teaching workshops and courses from my home. Time and space to share with my partner, snuggling up together for movies and days out. I’ve had many challenges, being face to face with limits for me to surpass. Sometimes one rumbling on after another, even or hand in hand. I’ve embraced them all, flown through many refusing to stay stuck. Yet on a whole, a comfortable world, a small world.

Along the other path lead off into a unknown future, one that held the centre for me to run, and children… It was full of unknown challenged and great change. I was given the choice ‘which path will you take?’

I would like to say that without hesitation a chose the seconded unknown path full of adventure. Instead I sat, both paths before me.

The thought of children unsettles me. I’ve been told by four different people that they see my children, waiting to come through. Too often I’ve been given dates, times schedules. I don’t like it, life flows and to know the future can at times unsettle the present. I have felt as though my ‘free will’ hasn’t been respected. Yet a place in my heart welcomes it.

My ever loving Native American guide has said ‘you shall not be gifted with a child this year.’
Gifted, how perfect for to have a child is an honour, not a burden.

I sat, two paths before me. Tempted to stay comfortable, yet not tempted nearly enough, for I knew that I would never be fulfilled. There is so much more for me to achieve.

A choice, I choose adventure, the unknown, my higher path. How could I have ever have hesitated! Flows of love and excitement welled up within me, creating shifts in my energy field, lifting my vibration. Seems so funny now, so silly, remembering the space before i chose, was that really me? Not something recognise now. I feel so different.

I understand the inner conflict I felt as the beginning, the root of the hesitation. No matter, I choose as I have always done, growth, movement, love....

Thank you beloved, for bringing it to my attention, for it is no longer there.
Onwards then, to a life of adventure, blessed with divine timing…

With Love
Katie x x

Thursday, 16 July 2009

Love & Light

I read in my horoscope last week (which i usually don't do) something about: It is not easy being love and light as we are dense and thick (in matter-not literally!)and I thought how apt this was and I had to have a little chuggle to myself as the Angels had guided my hand to this page-as a couple of days before someone very close to me had said "Get it through to you THICK head..."-not easy to swallow for a girl who won a scholarship to study at post grad level. Life throws me the lessons I need to learn-this one not to let what others say affect you-which I am getting a master at (depends on how I am feeling physically and emotionally). I have spent a lovely week with the kids at the coast and I pulled an Angel card at the beginning of the week 'FUN'-oh yes the Angels know I forget to have 'FUN' at home-when you are bogged down with everything. Today I pulled out a card 'Be Love & Light'-now if the Angels can just direct me to the lovely cottage on the coast.............

Love & Light

Magsx

Tuesday, 14 July 2009

Angelic message

Beloved,

We ask that you love and honour your bodies and the body of the earth, blending together your energies for a smooth harmonious flow. They are both sacred, and are home to the purest energies. Both are home to an abundance of gifts and secrets to share. It is natural for you to be as one sweet ones, an extension of the self. A deep and loving earth relationship assist you to access deeper levels of your most precious being.

Channelled by Katie

Monday, 6 July 2009

Thunder

The clouds have been dark and the thunder has been rumbling very much a metaphor for how I have been feeling inside my heart and my head for the last few days. My heart hurts as does my head, taking on the energies of others which is not needed. Did not sleep last night, however I do not feel too bad this morning-it is now pouring down and it seems to be cleansing everything-maybe not me though-that may take a while and much healing to be done.I trust it will move on and not be so painful-I don't like this grumpy angry shadow figure I have become-but I must embrace it or I will feel worse. Thanks for listening.

Love and light

Magsx

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

Its Beautiful Outside-But not in the Inside

Today is beautiful, lovely and warm-yet my heart sinks at the thought of my disappointments-I meditated today and the Angels told me I am 'fed up' so to speak with my responsibilities-I have had them for so long-yet I choose them so why the moaning-last week I had to go to hospital with my 11 year old son-it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do with no one there for support-to watch the fear in his eyes as he went under then being externally thankful that he had woke up and I was there for him. In my meditation one Angel took my hand and brought me to my son my 'responsibility'and we embraced. I suppose the anger came from wanting a better life for him and I had set the plans in motion only for them to go backwards yesterday-As Michelle says everything in 'Divine Timing'-I have no patience at times-which is driven by fear. Fear of not being enough, of there not being enough, of life being boring, of not giving my son enough and the list goes on. I feel stuck, like a child in a the birth canal-I feel I need reborn-only I can do this-to enjoy the wonderful summer I can have with my responsiblities if I choose.

Angel Blessings

Mags