Monday, 27 July 2009

Teashop revelations

Another beautiful weekend, the sky looks magnificent with the promise of more rain and thunder.

Sitting in a county garden tea shop with my partner, sipping tea and dunking ginger biscuits... heaven. Seem to find myself having this feeling more and more often.

As we held our hot drinks we spoke about aspirations and the amazing gifts that everyone has, from patience, the love of gardening to designing web programs and writing music. A blessing, yet one that can be turned into pressure by not only the outside world, but from within personal relationships and often more harshly, from within us.

A feeling of discomfort washed over us. Something needed to come to light.

It become clear that Dave never really released the pressures of last year, the possibilities that it held, the belief that to be financially abundant, it took a great deal of time, hard work as so much effort. How floored this belief is. How many times we can hear some one else say these things, yet the words and meaning don’t register, it was wonderful to see him unravelling the tangle that was there, hidden in his subconscious. It effected each area of his life.

He then saw an image with his inner vision, a scene of himself joyfully skipping down the street. With this image came a story of letting go, that all comes with freedom, not pressure and restriction.

My uneasiness was still there. I was being nudged to see and feel my tangle of thoughts. I saw and felt how harsh I was to myself. I still held the energy of blame for ever being so poorly. Disapproving that I often lie down in bed during the day as I feel tired and get sore muscles and joints, even though this is no longer every day or week. It became clear that I over look my many achievements, that the underling disapproval was still there, weighing me down.

Ah how good it was for this to surface, how unfair to ourselves we were being once seen easily transformed with laughter.

We always talk openly and freely with each other, something that was once a challenge now so simple. Still it was a relief to speak about this too, when something comes to light there are always blessings. Both walked out so much lighter than when we went in, able to laugh at ourselves and each other.
As soon as we got home, the heavens opened and the sky became one giant waterfall.

That evening we light candles, grabbed a drink, our blanket and before we played a movie, toasted to each other, our silliness and to our love.

With Love
Katie x

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