Two Paths

Sitting on my bed, I slipped into the welcoming space of my inner world. I felt a conflict within, resistance in my thoughts and emotions, one that I was not aware of until in meditation. Symbolically releasing by what I feel as an ‘inner opening of clenched hand’ I felt an immediate release. I rested in stillness, vaguely aware of a moving world outside where thoughts continued to dance outside for my attention, yet receiving none.

From my space within, I was given a choice. Two paths lay before me. One, I could continue very much as I do now. Live in a comfortable home with my loving partner, promoting Sanctuary of Angels in a verity of ways, seeing people for healing treatments and reading, teaching workshops and courses from my home. Time and space to share with my partner, snuggling up together for movies and days out. I’ve had many challenges, being face to face with limits for me to surpass. Sometimes one rumbling on after another, even or hand in hand. I’ve embraced them all, flown through many refusing to stay stuck. Yet on a whole, a comfortable world, a small world.

Along the other path lead off into a unknown future, one that held the centre for me to run, and children… It was full of unknown challenged and great change. I was given the choice ‘which path will you take?’

I would like to say that without hesitation a chose the seconded unknown path full of adventure. Instead I sat, both paths before me.

The thought of children unsettles me. I’ve been told by four different people that they see my children, waiting to come through. Too often I’ve been given dates, times schedules. I don’t like it, life flows and to know the future can at times unsettle the present. I have felt as though my ‘free will’ hasn’t been respected. Yet a place in my heart welcomes it.

My ever loving Native American guide has said ‘you shall not be gifted with a child this year.’
Gifted, how perfect for to have a child is an honour, not a burden.

I sat, two paths before me. Tempted to stay comfortable, yet not tempted nearly enough, for I knew that I would never be fulfilled. There is so much more for me to achieve.

A choice, I choose adventure, the unknown, my higher path. How could I have ever have hesitated! Flows of love and excitement welled up within me, creating shifts in my energy field, lifting my vibration. Seems so funny now, so silly, remembering the space before i chose, was that really me? Not something recognise now. I feel so different.

I understand the inner conflict I felt as the beginning, the root of the hesitation. No matter, I choose as I have always done, growth, movement, love....

Thank you beloved, for bringing it to my attention, for it is no longer there.
Onwards then, to a life of adventure, blessed with divine timing…

With Love
Katie x x