with love from Rachel

since last week i have been feeling disconnected and grumpy. i have over eaten until i had stomach ache and i have entertained very grim thoughts. i have felt myself slipping into the abyss of past patterns of self-destruct and self-distrust. But today i remembered something someone told me; a message from my angels about how hard it can be to reach me when my light begins to fade and i begin closing in on myself awash with misery and confusion. i remembered that the angels had said that even when i felt darkness all around me i need only light a candle in my heart and that that would be enough to let them through. so i lit one.. a very small one but it was the best i could do at the time. i remembered and i lit it. i imagined it there; a light flickering in the distance that my heart seemed to have become.....and it worked..they found me * * *

i asked why i felt so disconnected and they told me my connection was 'down for maintenance'..its part of the clearing of past things. all those old patterns and thoughts are just waiting, queueing up in the back of the mind almost, until its the right time to clear them. and little by little they get cleared. you remember your get out of jail free card (the things you learnt last time you felt that way) and you light that tiny candle...

Never give up. Where there is life, there is hope.